My understanding of spirituality is that we embark upon a journey at some point in our lives. Some of us wake up one day and realise that things have to change.
“Knock, And He’ll open the door
Vanish, And He’ll make you shine like the sun
Fall, And He’ll raise you to the heavens
Become nothing, And He’ll turn you into everything.”
There are aspects about our lives which we don’t like, things that suddenly don’t resonate or create conflicts in our minds. As we dig a little deeper we realise we carry baggage or scars of our experiences. We are suddenly a sum of all our experiences. If we sit down and list our every memory which we can ever remember, we realise they stay in our minds because they have an emotional affect upon us. Some are happy, some are glorious, many sad, then some which bring resentment and anger and then tug at your heart with nostalgia. As we process these and reconnect our emotions to those moments, the realisation dawns that every moment has become us. Who we are today, our values and opinions, our moods and persona is a reflection of the ups and down, of the words we have heard, the actions we have seen and the opinions we have absorbed our parents, friends, teachers, relatives, mentors and even the books we read, movies we see, the discussions we overhear leave their mark and have an influence with or without us knowing.
The first step is having a clear idea of what you love and respect about oneself, and what values and attributes I would want to let go off. These are aspects of my personality that has always been at conflict with my inner self. Characteristics, opinions, emotions and behaviour that causes a negative state of mind. These become catalysts to create anger, sadness, guilt, disillusionment, confusion, fear and many of the signs that tell me that it doesn’t fit.
Spirituality therefore is the constant search to identify these conflicts, connect them to the source of where they became part of me and let it go. Spirituality is the ability to finally go back to the state we were born with, the purity of the mind of a new born baby.
Spirituality is the continuous and never ending journey to return to a state of such divine integrity.